There
is no privacy that can’t be penetrated, no secret can be kept in a civilized
world, Society is a masquerade ball where everybody hides his real character
then revels it by hiding. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Razan
I
can’t understand her. Why is she still treating me like old times after all I
did to her? I thought as I was walking down the hall. A girl hit me by mistake
as she was running. I lost my balance I was about to fall on the floor.
She
caught me. My books fell on the floor. “’Anata wa daijōbudesu ka? (JP)’ Are you
okay?” She asked. I nodded. I had this urge to hug her then I remembered that
things aren’t like they used to be.
The
talk I had with Tariq came to mind. Why would someone who betrayed me still act
that nice toward me? “Sienna, why are you helping me? After all what happened.”
I demanded. "Because I’m your knight, remember?" She answered.
She
picked up my books and gave them to me, and then she walked away. After school
Feras picked me up. “Razanii, what do you have tomorrow?” He asked. “Nothing,
are you taking me on a date?” I asked.
“Well,
let’s just say that I got two tickets to attend a talent show!” He said as he
showed me the tickets. “Awesome, who’s playing?” I asked. “A new band called
unspoken words.” He explained. “I’m sure it will be great!” I said.
Sienna
“Sarah
how many songs will we play tomorrow?” I asked. We were sitting in the studio.
“We’ll play two songs.” Sarah answered. Aseel whispered something in Sarah’s
ear. “Sienna, Ron says that Razan and Feras will be coming.” Sarah said.
I
grinned. “That will make it easier to choose the songs.” I said. Tariq left the
studio. “Now seriously Sie, are you in love with that girl?” Aseel asked.
“Yeah, seriously just between us.” Sarah backed her up.
“No,
I’m not.” I rolled my eyes. “I saw what you did today.” Aseel raised her eye
brow. “Are you stalking me?” I demanded. Sarah looked at Aseel. “What did she
do?” Sarah asked. “She was like a true knight she caught the princess before
she fell on the floor.” Aseel answered.
“She
didn’t.” Sarah was shocked. “Excuse me I’m right here.” I said. “Sie saved the
day.” Aseel shrugged. “Wasn’t it hot?” Sarah asked. “It was I was almost turned
on.” Aseel answered. I put my hand on both their mouths. “To your instruments…”
I demanded.
Tariq
entered the studio. We all looked at him. “I’m not even going to ask.” He said.
Sarah and Aseel started laughing. “Sie, did you decide on the two songs?” Tariq
asked. “Yeah, Believe and Right Here by Staind.” I said.
“I
didn’t take you for the alternative type, Sie.” Tariq commented. “Isn’t it
obvious Tariq?” Aseel began. “She’s doing it for Razan.” Sarah finished. Tariq
laughed. I can’t remember, since when was it that easy to see right through me?
“Do
you not like the songs?” I asked. They all looked at me. “I do like them.”
Tariq answered. “Then we’re playing them.” I insisted. We practiced the songs
all night, till they were perfected.
Farah
“Get
your cloths we’re leaving.” Mom said. “Are we leaving him for good?” I asked.
Mom nodded. “Why now?” I asked. “Farah Just get your cloths and help your
siblings with theirs.” She shrugged.
We
got our cloths and we were out of that house for good. When we got to granny’s
place I had an incoming call. I picked it up. “Hey you.” He said. “Hey Pete.” I
answered. “How are you doing sweetie?” he asked.
“I’m
doing well, what about you?” I said. “I’m great, now that I heard your voice.”
He said. I blushed and softly giggled. “What you doing?” he asked. “We’re
moving to grandma’s place. Mom and Dad are splitting up.” I explained.
“Sorry
to hear that.” He said. “Don’t be, it’s for the best.” I commented. “You really
think so?” he asked. “I know so.” I replied. “Farah, we’re friends now right?”
He asked. I don’t know why but when he called us friend it felt wrong.
“Sure.”
I answered unwillingly. “There is something that I wanted to talk to you about,
that I can’t talk with Sienna about.” He said. “I’m listening.” I assured him.
“I’m in love…” He trailed off. My heart ached.
“I
don’t know how to tell that girl that I love her… I mean she means so much to
me, I don’t want her to misunderstand me.” He said. “How can you be sure that
you love her?” I asked. “I know that in ten years, I want to wake up next to
her.” He said.
My
heart was aching so bad, I almost forgot how to breathe. “Did you try to simply
tell her that you loved her?” I managed to say. “No.” He replied. “Then tell
her that. I’m sure she’ll appreciate it.” I said. I started shivering. My eyes
were teary.
Does
that mean I have feeling for him? “Okay, I love you Farah.” He said. My tears
started falling. What did he just say? Why am I crying? “Sheesh Farah, don’t
cry.” He said. “Can you repeat what you just said?” I sniffed.
“Farah,
don’t cry.” He said. “No, I mean before that.” I giggled. “I love you, Farah.”
He said. I grinned. “Thank you. I feel the same way.” I said. “I wish I can
hold you right now.” Waleed said.
Waleed
I
really do love her. I’m very happy that she shares the same feeling. I want to
see Farah. I haven’t seen her since the dance. So, I invited her to the talent
show today. I wondered why she didn’t know about it.
We
were on stage two hours before the talent show starts. I was helping them with
the set up since Tariq was the only guy there. I was surprised to know how much
Sarah was familiar with the stage set up and all.
“Sienna,
may I speak with you for a minute?” I asked. “Sure, what’s up?” She said. We
got off the stage and went somewhere quite. “I don’t know how to tell you
this…” I said. “You can tell me anything Pete.” She replied.
“I’m
in love with your friend Farah.” I said. She grinned. “That’s… Awesome! Did you
tell her that yet?” she said. “Yes this leads me to the other subject…” I
trailed off. “Which is?” she asked.
“Why
aren’t you guys speaking?” I said. “What do you mean?” she asked. I sighed.
“Farah didn’t know about the band till I told her, and you had no idea that I
confused my love for her.” I explained.
She
looked away. “Did you ask her that?” she chocked. I reached to hug her. She
backed away. “Take good care of her.” She grinned and left me. I texted Farah:
‘Farah,
what’s going on between you and Sienna? –Waleed’
‘What
the hell did she say? –Farah’
‘Nothing…
She asked me to take good care of you. –Waleed’
‘Then
nothing is going on between us. –Farah’
‘Right…
when are you coming to the talent show? –Waleed’
‘I’ll
be there in two hours. –Farah’
‘Take
care sweetie and see you then <3 –Waleed’
So
I’ve waited to see her.
Sienna
We’re
going up on stage next. My heartbeats racing, I’m going to live that dream for
the next 5 minutes. Sarah was having a smoke and Aseel was sitting on her lap.
Then I saw Aseel walking away.
“Sienna
when I’m gone, take care of Aseel for me, alright?” Sarah said. “You’re not
leaving her, are you?” I asked. “We don’t know what tomorrow might hold for
us.” she shrugged. Then she looked at me, “Promise me that you’ll take care of
her.”
I nodded. Aseel came back with a bottle of
water in her hand. She handed Sarah the bottle. They’re good together. “Up next
is Unspoken Words.” The presenter said. “’Gambatte Sie.’ Good luck Sie.” Sarah
said.
My
heart was beating so fast. I have no idea how to handle this. The crowed was
pretty big, unlike the time I sang at the café. I’m on stage now. It’s so huge.
“Hello, we’re Unspoken Words…” I said through the microphone.
We started playing right here by Staind:
I
know I've been mistaken,
But
just give me a break and see the changes that I've made.
I've
got some imperfections,
But
how can you collect them all and throw them in my face
[Chorus]
But
you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You
always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And
if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching
for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I
hope you're not intending
To
be so condescending, it's as much as I can take.
And
you're so independent, you just refuse to bend
So
I keep bending 'till I break
[Chorus]
But
you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You
always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And
if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching
for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I've
made a commitment, I'm willing to bleed for you
I
needed fulfillment
I
found what I need in you
Why
can't you just forgive me?
I
don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way...
But
I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
waiting
I
always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
But
you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You
always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And
if I chose to walk away, would you be right here waiting
Searching
for the things to say to keep me right here waiting
I
could see her there with the audience.
Razan
When
they called Unspoken Words, I thought it was another boy band though it was
Sienna who was on stage. I was stunned. She was amazing. She was that knight of
mine. She was all I’ve known her to be.
The
song ended. “That song was dedicated to a special someone, I’m right here waiting…”
Sienna said. “This next song is called
Believe by Staind.” She finished. After the end of the second song, I hugged
Feras tight and my tears won’t stop falling.
“Hey
princess, Let me take you home.” he said. I nodded. He dropped me off my place and
told me that he’ll see me tomorrow. I should confront him tomorrow. Sienna can’t
betray me like that.
Waleed
Two
hours have passed. Unspoken Words are up next. No word from Farah yet. “Pete,
you look troubled. What’s the matter?” Ron asked. “Farah is not here yet.” I
said. I looked at my mobile and a message was there. It was Farah.
‘Look
to your left. –Farah’
I
turned left. There was this beautiful girl wearing a long sleeve mini dress.
She waved at me. “You look Amazing.” I said when I stood closer to Farah. She
blushed. “Thank you.” she said. I held her hand.
“Do
you want to go somewhere else?” I asked. “It’s okay.” She said. We went outside.
The night was so serene. “Farah, I don’t want to start on the wrong foot here.”
I said. “What do you mean?” she got confused.
“I
don’t believe the fact that nothing happened between the two of you.” I said.
“And why is that?” She asked. “Because at the party, she sang that song for you
and as I told you before that girl care about everyone but herself. So it’s pretty
obvious.” I explain.
“Do
you think dancing with her was an acceptable thing?” she asked. “You stopped
talking because she danced with a guy? Or was it because that guy was me?” I
asked. “It was a little bit of both.” She said.
“Boy,
am I lucky.” I commented. She blushed.
Farah
My
heart was beating so fast. Heat rushed through my body, I was burning still.
“The dance was my fault forgive her for that… and I’m yours only now.” He
whispered the last part. He was standing so close to me.
Still
holding my hand, I felt his lips on my cheek. I let go of his hand and left the
place.
Aseel
I
can’t believe that we won the talent show. “You were amazing.” Sarah whispered
in my ear. My face went red. She hugged me from behind. “You know what I love
most about you?” she asked. I shook my head. “No.” I looked at her.
“All
your reacting are the same as when we first met.” She explained. I looked
confused. “In other words, I love the fact that I can still make you blush.
Just like that.” She said. I giggled. “We should go home.” She said.
“Don’t
you want to go to the after party?” I asked. “No, we have better things to do
at home.” she said. “Better thing to do?” I asked. “Yeah like stripping and...”
She was saying. “Better thing to do.” I interrupted her. Sarah nodded.
We
were at my place. I showed Tariq my prize and made sure he was tucked in bed.
Then, I went to my room with Sarah. I was about to turn on the lights. “Keep it
this way.” She whispered. I left the lights off and locked the door.
She
took of my shirt and started kissing me violently. “Sarz wait.” I said. Sarah
was on top of me as I was lying in bed. “Okay?” She said. “What’s wrong?” I
asked. “Nothing…” She said and started
kissing me down my neck.
I
was losing myself slowly. “Seel, can you promise me something?” She asked.
“Anything.” I answered. “When am gone, don’t look for me.” She said. “No, I’ll
look for you.” I replied. “But I’m right here.” she pointed at my heart.
“So
promise me you won’t look for me.” She said. “I promise. You’ll never leave my
heart.” I said. “I want tonight to be the night you’ll never forget.” Sarah
whispered.
Razan
There
was a strange movement on my bed that led me to wake up. It was Feras jumping
on my bed. He grinned. “Wakey Wakey Princess.” He said. I threw the pillow that
was next to me on him. “Out.” I said.
He
was wearing a long face as he left my room. I got out of bed and got dressed
and then I went to the living room. “Who let you in?” I demanded. “You’re mom
did.” He answered. “And who gave you permission to enter my room?” I asked.
He
didn’t answer. “Whatever…” I said and went back to my room. I minutes later I
heard knocking on my door. I didn’t answer. “Razanii, I’m sorry.” He said. I
rolled my eyes. “I’m truly sorry Razz, I didn’t mean to upset you. I should’ve
waited outside.” He said.
“Yes,
you should’ve waited outside.” I said as I opened the door. It’s my chance I
can ask him to tell me the truth now. “I should’ve.” He said and kissed my
forehead. “Shall we go?” I asked. He nodded.
When
we were outside next to his car before he opened the door for me, “Feras…” I
said. “Yes princess?” he said. “I’m just asking for honesty.” I said. “What is
it?” he said. “What did Sienna say when she called you?” I asked.
“She
said that she wanted me.” He said. “You’re saying that Sienna said, ‘I want you’?”
I asked. “Yes.” He replied. “Sienna would never say something like that.” I
commented. How foolish was I to believe him?
“Wait
Razan…” He began to say. “Don’t even try.” I said as I walked away.